Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Tomorrow will worry about itself

"This is why I tell you: do not be worried about food and drink you need in order to stay alive, or about clothes for your body. After all, isn't life worth more than food? And isn't the body worth more than clothes? Look at the birds: they do not plant seeds, gather a harvest and put it in barns: yet your Father in heaven takes care of them! Aren't you worth much more than birds? Can any of you live a bit longer by worrying about it?" - Matthew 6: 25-27

T-minus a little under 6 months until I leave on my trip and I'm suffering some late winter blues. I haven't been writing much and I'm aching to get out and start testing my walking fitness. The only problem is that it is butt ass cold out there and I try to be outside as little as possible in this horrific weather. I'm flying to California on Friday to spend some time with Marco and Ivan. I have a free day on Tuesday, so maybe I will take a walk from Nikki's apartment to somewhere a good distance away. UCLA might be a nice practice walk - coming in at around 8 miles. When I return to NYC I'm going to go from the tip to the tip of Manhattan Island and that will be 12.5 miles and a gradual progression is what I'm looking for.

The quote from Matthew which leads this post has always captivated me. The thought of not worrying and trusting that I will be provided for has followed me throughout my adulthood. But I have to say that I've never really given myself that experience. I'm so much of a natural planner that it goes against my instincts to fly totally by the seat of my pants. Yet part of what this trip is about is being willing to do just that and not worry. Granted, I will have a number of "planned" stops along the way. But I also want to have days where things are left to chance. That fear of letting go is one of the dragons I need to slay in this Hero's Journey.

I'm looking forward to also doing a bit of reading while on vacation. I've fallen a bit off pace and now I'm juggling Eckhart Tolle and Joseph Campbell at the same time. I think I will aim to finish Tolle and "To Kill A Mockingbird" by the end of this month and just savor Campbell at whatever pace I happen to digest it at.